It's amazing how a cheesy movie, with horrible acting and very lame editing, can stil manage to make me cry and put an end to my going-out plans. Let me explain.

I am about to admit that I'm a huge Ryan Reynolds fan. Yup, I mean, like fourteen years ago, I actually watched the show Fifteen when it was on Nickeolodean and had a huge crush. So there you go. Yes, I know he's marrying Alanis Morrisette and well, his movies aren't always the greatest, but he has this ease and charm that I can not help but find attractive. Anyway, he was in a movie on ABC Family and I just happended to TIVO it. After catching up on all my shows this evening, I cliked my now playing and turned on.

It was horrible. It really was. It was overdubbed, the dialoge was horrific and well, I didn't really want to watch it but I was sucked in. And there I was, enjoying the cheesy goodness and yup, it turns out that this loveable, young, wonderful teacher had terminal cancer. Throughout the movie you get glimpses--that he doesn't want to have relationships, he's kind of cut off from his world outside is job, yadda yadda yadda, and seeing him in the chemo room kind of jolted me. And I was literally in the chemo room that I had received treatment in two days ago, so I have no idea why this moved me. Maybe because there I had been visiting, on my way to somewhere else, and I had gone back just to say hi, to show off that I have hair, that I look normal. I don't know. But here I am, blotchy faced and a tension headache hitting between my eyes. Needless to say, I won't be getting dressed to go and sit at a bar and watch the crowd go by.